Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Dream: the two saddest things

the house that I lived in 7 years ago was up for sale.  They were having an open house, so I stopped in to see it.  Inside, they had changed out the carpet and painted different colors.  I went outside and entered the backyard.  My now dead dog Sabastian entered the gate with me.  He was so excited to be back in his favorite place.

A voice came to me and said, "think of the two most sad times that you had in this house.  Go ahead and let yourself  go down there.  Then I will fix it and heal you."

This seemed like a good opportunity for self healing so I jumped at the opportunity.  First as I watched Sabastian run around the yard, I was saddened by his recent death.  Then I remembered an argument that my wife had had.  She was sitting on the family room floor screaming about being a bad wife and unable to be a mother."

I awoke with tears pouring out.  I felt only pain and no healing.  I was angry at myself for having let myself go down there.